IMAN

2010-08-31T07:44:00.000-07:00

2010-08-22T06:40:00.000-07:00

2010-06-11T10:18:00.000-07:00

2010-05-01T07:39:00.000-07:00

sneak peak

2010-04-12T08:54:00.001-07:00

sneak peak on the website i'm working on...for school purpose

don't be hitting on me too hard. please

2010-02-06T04:47:00.001-08:00

Please do not be hitting on me so hard just because I’m taking quite a while to do my prayers. Please do not raise your voice at me just because I am always okay with it. I am the youngest in the family, and that is probably how far my status goes; but I believe it doesn’t serve me to be turned into a punching bag. I understand about who you are, but I believe I make quite a position in the house too. I realize I’ve not been doing my prayers as much as I used to. But I’m trying not to miss it. I know my mouth is so used to swearing now. You know I’m avoiding it. I know my temper is getting worse. I know I’m less caring. I know this and that. I know I’ve changed a lot. Almost seems like there’s nth I could do about it. I can live with it. I think you all should too.

2010-02-01T03:55:00.000-08:00

2010-01-23T19:56:00.000-08:00

stupid

2010-01-11T03:11:00.000-08:00

Stupid, just stupid. The idea of being nice to someone is just plain dumb. Believing in a good ending is just fictitious. Compromising with people is just pointless. Having hope is a waste of time. Perseverance is a quality too dumb for human being to act. Constantly getting right back up is a self-volunteered torture. Accepting life just leads to why I have the `habit’ of frowning. Keeping things inside makes my smile looks forever fake. Adjusting the personality a little to fit a girl’s interest is fucking unintelligent. Seeing others happy is pure disgusting. Solitude is a way of life. Saying `I’m okay’ makes me a big fat liar. This is just purely stupid; just stupid.

Self thought: hey lets not care anymore, how about that? It’ll be better that way.

2010-01-08T23:13:00.000-08:00

after a hell long time i finally started to edit photos again..using my dad's lappy that is, edited 5 of em...none can go on fb, gosh! but these two are my favs

2009-12-23T04:53:00.000-08:00

the Scar

2009-12-08T07:58:00.000-08:00

I work out when I’m sad, angry, or lonely.
My body is a scar; a scar that was left after being tortured by my own emotions.

2008-11-06T06:49:00.000-08:00

i don't understand, why all these colours on my face? what do they mean?
why i suddenly took them out from my colour pencil box? which is my true identity? the left or the right? i just dun understand...

2008-09-19T09:32:00.000-07:00

i did this sketch to express myself during y most recent break up..it was somewhere last year.erm colour pencil on paper this piece is entitled: `infinity tears'.i tried writing poetry its not that good no doubt so be nice people.please note that this poem is written generally and not referring to anyone.i have no intention to offend anyone.here goes:

She was kind,
But I was kind too
They say love is blind,
But I’d say it blinds you

I remember we used to hold hands really tied
Both always happily standing side by side
Loving each other deeply like bonnie and Clyde

But it was all gone
Everyone wants love
Like it is some form of pollution
Giving humans no solution

Oh please
I’m not making it sound like a disease
But it is

What happened that night was not meant to be?
Causing me to be like this, hurting me mentally
That night was still young
She was still young
Not really sure what she was looking for
Moved on in life to know more

Left searching for peace like the dove,
At the same time searching for love

I tried to suppress this feeling
That got me thinking
Sat down alone and start reminiscing
What steps did I did wrong
That got me suffering for so long
That enforced me to be strong
And hold it all along

I hark back to I was left all alone
Sat there having faith, picked up the phone
Thinking of words and many ways to express
But they don’t mean anything anymore like they’d all be burn to ash
Like love can be easily bought with cash?

Trying to get her hooked
But she goes for looks
So it is not some Hollywood ending either
Were just simple love notes won't touch her heart deeper
All these words mean nothing no more
Just got my heart sore

2008-09-04T07:44:00.000-07:00

I who is only human and capable of nothing much, but have countless desires. I, only seek pleasure that is almost impossible. I can only suppress this feeling as something is preventing me from letting it to be revealed. I am sure He knows what is bothering me the most now. My heart requests something to cure but I doubt it is going to happen. Certain things are just too impossible to be true. Haiz(sigh)..What is wrong with me? Can I ever do anything right?

2008-08-15T16:27:00.000-07:00

sneaker pimpin..designed by me
designed by aaron's ipod project: `music '
designed for countdown 2009 poster..

2008-08-11T04:10:00.000-07:00

Title: suicide
Artist: Nur Iman (myself)
FYI: coloured-pencil on paper

This feeling. It is coming back. I just cannot put out of my mind. My utmost fear: for it to repeat again. How does it feel to be rejected by almost all that you tried? It is something that I cannot forget. Made me realize how much of least importance I was. It was like the existence brought the least impact. Felt unwanted. Haiz…

No way am I letting it happen again….

Suicide solves all your problems. But in a cowardly manner

2008-07-27T02:40:00.000-07:00

A smile might seem like a pleasant thing anyone could create. I use it like a mask to cover my true feelings. Had dance session yesterday as per normal. A lot of people asked me about how was the session. I just said it was enjoyable enough. Really I was in the mood all along but something just brings me down in the dumps. All along I was raging silently inside. But no one notice that. There are only two reasons to smile; when you are happy or you want to hide your sadness and not let it affect on anyone else. Mine is the second one. How could this be? I do not want to be passionate on something that I suck the most. Every move I made just adds up to another one of my mistakes. And it just annoys me when I found out all this while I’m doing my foot works the fucking wrong direction. Gee how `cool’ is that?

I wonder what life would lead me too. I do not want to die for nothing one day. I’m looking forward to live for something and carry with me that something. Humans are weak. We are only capable of planning. God decides what happens next. And what happens after life? Will I go to hell or live in the sky? Honestly I am clueless of what is going to happen and how long my passion will take me. Running out of purpose for myself here. Why am I created? I’m just wasting my time.

2008-07-16T02:54:00.000-07:00

'that common expression'

Humans are never far from mistakes. I am very much aware of that fact therefore I’m trying my best not to go to that. Mistakes are like a weakness everyone owns within them. Something that you would not know when it would hit you. By the time, you only got so little to retaliate to it. It is tough to prevent something that you yourself are not even certain of when it will come. There are loads of things I really wish I had not done. Oh God please do not make this decision that I just made a mistake as my intentions are only for the best of others and myself. Praying hard that I did the right thing.

Something is making me feel so off beam here. I know I did it, as it is the precise thing to do. But I just got this feeling that I had got someone upset. Well, like I said mistakes are something that is almost cannot be prevented. If I made a mistake then I would live my life with it. If it’s not, then I would be relieved.

'it is something that we have no control over and that is what destiny is'

2008-06-11T08:05:00.000-07:00

painted with bboy azhari's bro yesterday.what do you know,his brother is one of the OTs(old-timer) in singapore graff scene.just that he stopped for a long period causing him to deprove on his style and maybe can control.talking about skills,I'm loosing them too.well,my piece,the one in Grey is a new style.mostly inspired by fish features.i kinda took features of fishes and manipulate it into letters.i try to make it as complicated as possible making it seems like a fish character,at the same time like a font style.yeah this is just the first attempt on it.the character was a last minute thing.that is why it is abit wack.i did it at night so i could not really see what i was painting.well, i hope the second attempt on my new style would be better.

2008-06-03T00:57:00.001-07:00

I don’t understand. Why is it still hurting? My breath is as hot as fire smoke. I took the pills and medicine. But why is it because there’s too much too think about? Sometimes I get so tired of answering people. Everyone needs to shut the fuck up for a while. I don’t understand why I’m feeling so fucked up here. We’ll it’ll go off.

head cracking

2008-05-28T20:43:00.000-07:00

Imagine a time when you need your mind the most. Then suddenly you feel like a sudden rampage in your brain. The more you need it, the more the pain increases. Just picture all the veins surrounding the brain being stretch to the fullest making it feel like it is burning inside a remote forest. The more you need it, the more it will stretch. Just imagine the pain I went through. I hate Migraine the most. I hope it would not come again cause this is the time where I need it the most.

graff jam

2008-05-10T22:02:00.000-07:00

check out this ghetto blaster..i don think it can still be found anywhere in sg.a fellow graffiti writer named klax brought it along..dang! this think is cool stuff..
sg graffiti writers unite to for this graffiti jam (:
this is my piece i did hehe..wat ya think?
this is the final piece at long wall of skate park.(from left to right:) :erm i dunno her name,then followed by tech,sketch one,slacsatu,scope,syco,zero,aiz,skillz(myself),blynk,yugo,bomberman,shak a.k.a kay

sorry for the bad photo btw..anywhere went graffiti jam yesterday.it turned out to be more crazy then i expected.the ghetto blaster was damn cool man..haha it uses caset not cd..cause during the time it was made..there is no cd..haha anw yeah had a great time painting with all the legendary kings namely Zero from Artivist and Titans aerosol Creations,Scope from King's Destroyers,Operation Art core,and BNA..this guy is a legend not forgetting the sneaker pimp Sketch One from Bring Da Paint..Slac and Syco is there too...so yup this is it..i actually had plan wat to paint but then i brought the wrong blackbook..-.- so i had to freestyle on the spot.it was so impromptu but i like the final outcome..ouhkla...hehe ok thats all oh yah shout out to my crew(Klan Zero One) and DTB the next generation of kings perhaps? haha

2008-04-30T18:25:00.001-07:00

more and more people like saying vulgarities huh..well,i always say them too.but theni feel bad every time i did.its like its natural in our mouth.that dragon(done by me;aerosol paint on wall) is just like people whom always say vulgarities.just like the dragon which opens its mouth and produce flames and injured others,is like hoe humans saying vulgarities might offend others..i want to break this habit of saying it..not that i always do..but i do it sometimes,so i want to try not to.

2008-04-24T03:40:00.001-07:00

one man army..i dun want to live hoping from others so much.after all this is my life.i'm glad i always have people or rather someone be there for me all the time.. i'll continue this post.this is life.in life, u need a purpose.without purpose u're as good as being dead.to continue in life,u need to find that purpose.i am in a one man army of my own league..i have my own purpose.i'll keep dancing and graffiti writing to remiind myself that i'm still alive.

2008-04-22T04:56:00.000-07:00

this is the piece i did for Republic Poly `Create Republic'.this is the outcome.sorry for the bad picture.the place was dark.and i was alone in there :'( anw i'm not quite happy with the outcome though.it is really a bad piece.i wish i have black aerosol paint.this is it..bad rendering bad rendering..:'(

2008-04-19T16:24:00.000-07:00

It’s presence. Like it truly exist. Why am I still feeling this constant fear? I am all grown up now and I know very well such things don’t exist. But its existence can be felt. Like its still lingers around the surroundings where I was. I know when I was young its presence was a dreadful thing. Later when I grew up I realized, scientifically its just a mind game. But the feeling is still there. Like I’m suffering from a sickness, which cannot be healed. It is the fear that could never be fought. Sometimes I feel like that thing is closer. Like it’s hunting me. But every time it happens I will just tell myself that such things do not exist. I constantly say my prayers every night cause I know HE who is The Almighty would always be there for me. InsyaAllah

Forget that anyway….Yesterday I watched this Malay drama series. I was sad. Now days Muslims always got a bad name. Sometimes I go to online and watch some videos regarding Muslim religion. Below it (at the comment section) there would surely be comments criticizing my religion. I very much am aware of why people are having negative mindset of my religion. I just thought that it should not be blame on religion. Take for example; a young youth was caught sniffing drugs. When the police caught him, his parents were to be blamed. But did his parents taught him to sniff drugs? The answer is no. Same for this. Muslims never taught any bad stuff. It is the individual that caused the bad name. Every rule made by God has a good reason. It’s because humans tend to be so stubborn and broke it which caused bad things to happen. I admit I am not a really good(but i'm trying to be) Muslim. But I am proud of my religion.

2008-04-14T20:26:00.000-07:00

I’m truly having disciplinary problems. I’m constantly late for school. Just today I got school at 10 am, due to me being late, I think I would have reached an hour late. Therefore I didn’t turn up for school today. I feel bad though. This isn’t my first time. Its like I could not help it. Every time I tried to be early, the same thing would happen. Bad punctuality. The truth is, I was preparing a graffiti sketch that needs to be painted at Republic Poly today. And it was so last minute; therefore I got to prepare it at the very last minute too. I got so little information about it. Either way I hope it would turn out well. I hope I won’t need to skip school again. My parents would for sure be upset. The fees are already a lot. Ok that is all for now. Anyway I like the edit above. Hehe

2008-04-11T07:31:00.001-07:00

I don’t know why am I so solemn lately. Its’ like I’m missing something or someone. I sketched that person. He who is known for putting that expression on his face. why? because its something that he had to do it due to the circumstances of his life. In life not everyone created by God has the same fate. Some are more lucky then the other. Take a look at the forest; the plants are constantly, day by day being blocked by the bigger trees disallowing them to receive the amount of sunlight, which result them not being able to grow. At the way things are going in the life of this person whom I’ve drawn, he most probably belong to the category of the plants and not the trees. He is the unfortunate one. However, this is life. Life is like running in a circular track. Problems keep coming. Like u running through a track with various obstacle causing u to suffer a constant pain. Since its circular, means you will never stop running. But just like a true athlete this guy never stops running until and overcome these obstacles one by one like a man.

This man whom I spoke about is referring to no one else but me. That face which I drew is like a common expression I always made. I remember all the hardships I went through while running through that circular track. Running alone, having no one to support me. One the first obstacle is to overcome my difficulties teaching my legs to stand up on it own instead of crawling. Then there came a point where I taught my hands to do what it capable of. I overcame all this without anyone to support me. Since young I’m used to do things on my own, overcoming all the hardships by myself. As time goes by, just like an athlete whom run many rounds he’ll get tired. Same goes for me. The more I’m going through this, the more I’ll et weaker. In life I don’t hope anything from anyone. But I always thank God for having someone with me all the time. For that I thank him. Alhamdulillah.

2008-04-08T07:30:00.001-07:00

ok.another day with her.helped her with her art course work.gosh that really reminded me on how struggling i was doing my art course work last two years.anyway,i don't know watsup with her and her hair today.such emo style hair.don't ask me abt the wax advertisment.Gui gui style it for me.hehe yeah i hope her art result improve more though cause she worked really hard for it.anyway i got good results for my first school term test.Alhamdulillah.however i must aim for higher standards as to go to the school that i want this year.ok thats about all support super Gui!

2008-04-06T06:25:00.001-07:00

Feeling helpless not able to know how to react. All I’m left with is hope from God and a faithful friend that would be there for me. Always will. I’m always alone in life. But I recollect I had never been all by myself in life. At every point of time after someone left me, someone else would appear in the chapters of my life. God knows well enough that I could not survive on my own. I thank him for that. All I hope for now, is to be sheltered by him cause at this point of time of very moment; it is something that I desperately need. She who’s always there for me is most treasured, and I hope shall always remain in the chapters of my life. And shall not left me like all the others did. His help and guidance might seems the minimum, but his minimum is the maximum. it is the only reason why I’m still standing strong here.

Back to earth. I spent the whole working on an art piece together with Aiz an Kay for the Youth Olympic Games. Yeah I was really lack of sleep on that day. Well I was one of the fastest to got it done so I got to rest more. I like the outcome even tough I don’t really like it in the first place. Here’s the pics.

2008-04-04T20:33:00.001-07:00

yesterday went to watch a movie with Gui gui.watched step up two.just a typical dance movie..anyway after that helped Gui gui with her art.we played,wet each other faces..grrr her hair is to my disadvantage...jus ain't fair!! as usual we took some pics together.going home along the way we met some rapist...lets jus not mention names.oh yeah me and Guigui went to long john silver for lunch..again played with the french fries..i got one in my mouth!! hurray!! ok thats about all..check out the pics...tag before u leave aight (:

2008-04-02T03:45:00.001-07:00

thats me wearing my bro's glasses.this whole week has indeed been a long one for me.i'm extremely busy.i hope to get my exams done as soon as possible.i also hope to get the graffiti project done too..but the most thing that i hope for at this very moment is to pass my exams.not just pass; but with flying colours.like i keep on mentioning it, i truly have to do this.All i ever want to do was to make my parents and everyone else in the family proud.i hope i succeed cause it is my only option for now.

2008-03-29T21:10:00.001-07:00

these for memories

2008-03-29T20:59:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was absolutely great! Having a friend to accompany me to study together. She constantly put a smile in me. Everything went wonderful. The truth is, we studied less, played more. Not to forget that Mac Donald clown to pay a ‘special’ visit when we were studying. We played the French fries game its hard to describe how the game is played in words. You just got to play it to know it. And I lost to her. How could this be!!! Never mind I had fun anyway. After that we went cam whoring on escalators and good sceneries. Forget sceneries our photos were the most important at that time. All right, let the pics do the talking. Enjoy people.

2008-03-28T18:39:00.000-07:00

yesterday i tried drawing Japanese Anime...but i failed.i hate it when it happens..its not the first time tough.well,i'll keep on trying till i get a perfect one.i just wish i have a higher knowledge in digital art.then perhaps i might produce better pieces.so mane people having problems.someone lost her hand phone,someone need more love...well, all i can say is this is life and everyone else is also facing problems and still got to live with it.As for me,i want to accomplish everything i had to:

-pass O levels
-master popping movement
-learn real krumphing
-do a mural of a portrait of someone
-master shoulder freeze
-master elbow freeze
-master drawing anime characters

2008-03-27T03:53:00.001-07:00

I don’t know why I tend to get angry very simply these days. I guess I have too many things on my mind. Well, no one likes a grumpy person. Not me either. I hope I won’t get to the extent that I might hurt somebody. This is my second time taking O levels. So either way I must get good marks. It’s no joke. I have to do this as I have been troubling a lot of other people like my sister and my mother. I hope God would be by my side to keep me strong. Strong enough to handle this. And I thank Him for providing me a friend whom always supports me. I hope my attitude gets better and I shall not get angry so easily. But sometimes its just hard for me.I'll be strong.Always.

2008-03-26T05:14:00.001-07:00

finally got myself a blog...all thanks to Gui Gui..yeah..so be sure to know a lil more about my life here...sorry because i cannot tell u 100% about it.i'm the sort who do not always let ppl know abt my life..but i'll use this blog to let out some thing's on my mind..ok so dats all for now.more updates coming..i guess